so my course is going okay so far, but i'm spending much less time on it than i thought i initially would...probably because the first book i've decided to start is the most boring and least relevant...i remember those courses that were mandatory when taking my psychology degree that had nothing to do with anything else, but for some reason, was deemed necessary for the rest of the degree...well, this is one of them...stress management..i guess it can be relevant, but i'm guessing it has to do more with those who would choose to later become workers of holistics...

hubby and i had a discussion a few nights ago watching a documentary about the 'universe' and the 'cosmos'...this is probably one subject where we have shared interest (believe it or not)...i for spiritual and metaphysical reasons, him for scientific reasons...

...anyhow, it was discussing how astronomers have recently discovered that the universe is so much bigger than initially thought...like totally totally massive and so much space, that "the conscious mind cannot grasp or make any sense of how large it really is"

..and this is really true. thank you for making the point i've been trying to make for so long and trying to articulate for so long...

...i like to think of it this way...
imagine you were born a fish...think of the amount of space you get to have being able to swim wherever you want in a vast ocean, and think of the space you swim over your whole life being a fish...lets say its 200km's...(that's a lot for a small fish, right?)
now being born a fish, you're instinctually born with certain traits...to look for food, to procreate, to defend etc...these are the traits needed to live as a fish...you instinctually know who your mamma is and who your enemies are, i say instinctually since you've never looked at yourself in a mirror to know what you look like and what, hence, your mamma looks like...in other words, how do you know you're a catfish for example, and not a clown fish?...how do you know your mamma isn't really a clown fish? (interesting eh?)

anyways, back on track...to this fish, its world is massive, it can probably keep on swimming on and on and on and on, in its mind, infinitely (and given the amount of ocean space, it wouldn't live long enough to swim every square inch of it)...but the fish doesn't really know where it ends-it doesn't really know that if it peeks its head out of the water and is able to look around and somehow see the whole earth at a glance, how large is really is after all...

that's kind of like us....the size of the solar system, then the universe, then the cosmos is so subjective because we're measuring it in terms of the five senses god gave us to work with...the traits needed to live here on earth, and not much else...we don't have what we need in order to understand the size and meaning of the universe, we were built like that on purpose, after all, we really don't NEED to know what's out there, we're just on earth to learn lessons and when we die, we get to find out the real meaning of life and the universe...
when the astronomers say "our conscious minds are too small to really understand the enormous space out there", they're right...human beings tend to approach knowledge very subjectively...the size of the universe to us humans is as proportionate as the size of the ocean space to the little fish...it can't possibly fathom how much space it really has and how much space really is out there after all...in order to study the massive concept of the universe from the viewpoint of a human being, we must liken it to the viewpoint of a fish toward its ocean..by studying things of a smaller scale and applying the same principles to those of a larger scale (the universe), we can begin to grasp what's really out there...

...we are in fact, probably just a speck of the larger order out there and part of a larger organism working together as one, interdependant upon each other just like a delicate ecosystem...

..humans will probably never get all the answers while here on earth, but they are trying!
the best position to take is this:

i'm a human being built instinctually with limited senses and traits that i need to survive and learn lessons on earth (just like the fish-nothing more, nothing less), and i don't begin to possess what's needed to understand or 'figure out' the universe and that will never change...

in other words, i'm fine with knowing that i don't know now and never will know...(at least in this life)..