Sunday, October 16, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
too long...again!!
well, very busy lately, especially building my new website...www.theofficialcaseyanthonywebsite.com...lots of people ask why...well, we are who we are...and i am a true crime junkie, a person fascinated by others and their behaviours...someone who wants to know what make people tick..and of course, the more bizarre, perplexing and mind boggling, the better...hence, casey anthony
life is good...except of course for someone's recent mid life crisis, of course, i'm not mentioning any names because that's private, and of course, that's life...hard and full of lessons...its like one of those things we can look back on as kids and never regret going through certain hardships, since its the only way we have ever gained the wisdom we have today...it sucks going through it, but we're so glad we did when its over...if only we can realize and appreciate that while we're going through crappy emotions...
i'm still on life's mission on becoming a sociopath...think about how much easier it would be to deal with life with NO EMOTIONS....easy peazy stuff...imagine life with no negative emotions...just good times, fun times...i'm envious of sociopaths :)
life is good...except of course for someone's recent mid life crisis, of course, i'm not mentioning any names because that's private, and of course, that's life...hard and full of lessons...its like one of those things we can look back on as kids and never regret going through certain hardships, since its the only way we have ever gained the wisdom we have today...it sucks going through it, but we're so glad we did when its over...if only we can realize and appreciate that while we're going through crappy emotions...
i'm still on life's mission on becoming a sociopath...think about how much easier it would be to deal with life with NO EMOTIONS....easy peazy stuff...imagine life with no negative emotions...just good times, fun times...i'm envious of sociopaths :)
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Don't forget to laugh...
yes, laughter really is the best medicine...ask any doctor and they'll tell you the numerous benefits of laughing, including physically, mentally, socially and emotionally.
I heard of a story on a reputable documentary series (i think it was about the powers of the mind)...anyways, the story goes that this lady was told that she had breast cancer (i don't remember how advanced), and she inevitably chose to NOT accept the traditional route of chemotherapy. She decided to 'laugh' it off. What she did was take a month off work, and in that month, she went to the video store each and every day and rented the best of comedies, and watched them literally from morning till night. This was her schedule daily for about a month.
When she returned to the doctor, they were amazed that her cancer was gone...fact or fiction? Was she able to benefit from all the changes that laughing provided in her body to heal her cancer? Or was it pure mind power (her expectation alone) where she thought she could cure her cancer that healed her? Or a combination of the two? Either way, no traditional medicine was used and it was another case that was put on the 'unexplainable mysteries' shelf in the doc's offices.
There's almost nothing better than being around your loved ones and living life to the fullest laughing your brains out...ever notice how friggin good that feels?
One thing i have to be grateful for towards my dad is how he taught me to laugh- his warped sense of sarcasm is his best trait-almost a defense mechanism really...i think i learned that practice from him, even in the worst possible situations...i've been around people who may find cracking a joke in what they perceive to be inappropriate situations somewhat uncalled for, but it always lifts the spirit and somehow lightens the burdens...and of course, more people than not have found it refreshing...
laughing strengthens our immune system, diminishes pain and protects us from stress.
It relaxes the whole body and relieves physical tension. It also increases infection fighting antibodies, and releases lots of nice happy feeling endorphins...
The next time you're faced with what you perceive to be a stressful, sad, angry or frustrated situation, purposely find a way to attach humor to it and notice how much it lightens your spirits...the best thing about laughter is it's sooo pleasantly contagious...yay!!
LOL
I heard of a story on a reputable documentary series (i think it was about the powers of the mind)...anyways, the story goes that this lady was told that she had breast cancer (i don't remember how advanced), and she inevitably chose to NOT accept the traditional route of chemotherapy. She decided to 'laugh' it off. What she did was take a month off work, and in that month, she went to the video store each and every day and rented the best of comedies, and watched them literally from morning till night. This was her schedule daily for about a month.
When she returned to the doctor, they were amazed that her cancer was gone...fact or fiction? Was she able to benefit from all the changes that laughing provided in her body to heal her cancer? Or was it pure mind power (her expectation alone) where she thought she could cure her cancer that healed her? Or a combination of the two? Either way, no traditional medicine was used and it was another case that was put on the 'unexplainable mysteries' shelf in the doc's offices.
There's almost nothing better than being around your loved ones and living life to the fullest laughing your brains out...ever notice how friggin good that feels?
One thing i have to be grateful for towards my dad is how he taught me to laugh- his warped sense of sarcasm is his best trait-almost a defense mechanism really...i think i learned that practice from him, even in the worst possible situations...i've been around people who may find cracking a joke in what they perceive to be inappropriate situations somewhat uncalled for, but it always lifts the spirit and somehow lightens the burdens...and of course, more people than not have found it refreshing...
laughing strengthens our immune system, diminishes pain and protects us from stress.
It relaxes the whole body and relieves physical tension. It also increases infection fighting antibodies, and releases lots of nice happy feeling endorphins...
The next time you're faced with what you perceive to be a stressful, sad, angry or frustrated situation, purposely find a way to attach humor to it and notice how much it lightens your spirits...the best thing about laughter is it's sooo pleasantly contagious...yay!!
LOL
Sunday, February 13, 2011
plants...
have you ever sat down and just stared at a plant for several minutes? i mean really stop and just stare? have you ever 'felt', 'sensed' something from it? a few years ago, i started to really just love plant life, yes, in a spiritual way...i would look at trees and just get a sense from them that they were in fact living things, yes, but also living things with a soul, a consciousness and a certain kind of intellegence superior to that of humans...
..anytime we would take the kids walking in the forest, i would purposely lose brian and the kids so i could sit down and be alone with a fern, meditate and be one with it...
...one of the things i'm enjoying about my course is that i'm finding its just re-affirming so many things i've felt i've known before, but wasn't able to fully articulate...i don't know if anyone can relate to what i'm saying, but its like there's some things in life that you just 'know' without ever studying about them or anything, you just get a settling of non verbal information in your bones about them...one of these 'knowings' of mine were always about plants...i always had a romantic view on them and always felt somewhat inferior to them on many different levels...
...i couldn't decide which subject to start in my program...plant communication or animal communication, so i decided plant communication would be far more interesting...in the first chapter alone, i'm reading how remarkable and yes, spiritual plants really are...
...its funny to me that not everyone knows this remarkable information about plants as it really is, remarkable...they have done studies in controlled environments about plants and have come up with such amazing findings...to mention just a few:
-plants have memories, if there are two plants together in the same room (which by the way, they are very much aware of 'each other'), and a human comes in and destroys one, the other surviving plant can later 'recognize' the human who killed the previous plant among other humans in the same room
-plants can 'read' or 'sense' your intent towards them-whether good or bad
-plants respond more positively through being consumed rather than falling on the ground to rot
-plants respond more positively to being harvested for consumable purposes rather than being picked for any other reason, or before they are ripe
-and so much more...
so you wonder how?
a polygraph machine is a device attached to humans that is able to detect the most subtle of subtlest reactions and emotions deep within the body in response to certain stimuli presented to the person who is being monitored...
...botanists use the same type of machines to measure plant activity far within its body (trunks, stems, leaves etc..)and plant reactions and responses (cellular level) to a wide variety of stimulus...one day while studying reactions of plants while being watered, a botanist suddenly thought to himself how the plant would react if he set one of the leaves on fire...all of a sudden, the needle on the machine went haywire...the researcher hadn't actually done anything yet, he just thought about it and the plant reacted...after many repeated experiments with many different plants, polygraphers, controls and studies, the same results were apparant...plants had esp...while attached to machines, they would always (definitive numbers that were and are beyond chance) react to the person's intent-whether good or bad...
...one day he tried an experiment to see if the plant was able to 'detect' or 'recognize' someone who had previously done harm to another plant nearby (since plants are very aware of the presences of other plants nearby)
he had five unsuspecting students pick an instruction note out of a hat...one of the students was to walk into the room with the two plants and kill one of them and walk out...(the students were not in on the experiment to remove any intent from their minds that the plants couldn't therefore pick up)...the other four students simply walked in and walked by the plants without doing them any harm, one by one...
...the researcher then asked the students to walk into the room again, alone, one by one...the surviving plant didn't have any reaction to the four students who had previously walked by the plants, but again and again, had drastic and highly measurable results when the perpetrator walked by who had previously killed the other plant...the plant went into a state of deep trance (similar to what animals automatically go in seconds before a deadly attack)...in other words, the researcher was able to conclude that plants are able to recognize someone who may have bad intentions towards them...
...now you ask yourself, as i did, how the heck can something that has no eyes, ears or a brain possibly react to situations like these? this simply leads me to conclude that like animals, who are born with certain instincts for survival without ever being taught how, are drawing their intellegence from a higher source...the same higher source that we draw our own intellegence from-our higher selves, our subconscious minds, the collective unconscious...
...even without experiments, one can't just witness the millions of miracles that occur on a daily basis on earth from plant life to animal life to molecular and cellular activity even in the human body and just conclude that all of this is and was just a random set of events...there's something much larger at play behind every life force...and i personally can't wait to be able to experience it outside my body...sometimes my thirst of this knowledge gets so bad that it feels like i'm going to explode into a million pieces...i swear i would do anything to be flatlined for even a minute (wouldn't matter since there's no time in other dimensions), just so i can poke my head out and take a look-even without my eyes and ears and experience more than i ever thought possible living as a human on earth...
...i always knew there was something mysterious and majestic about plants...:)
..anytime we would take the kids walking in the forest, i would purposely lose brian and the kids so i could sit down and be alone with a fern, meditate and be one with it...
...one of the things i'm enjoying about my course is that i'm finding its just re-affirming so many things i've felt i've known before, but wasn't able to fully articulate...i don't know if anyone can relate to what i'm saying, but its like there's some things in life that you just 'know' without ever studying about them or anything, you just get a settling of non verbal information in your bones about them...one of these 'knowings' of mine were always about plants...i always had a romantic view on them and always felt somewhat inferior to them on many different levels...
...i couldn't decide which subject to start in my program...plant communication or animal communication, so i decided plant communication would be far more interesting...in the first chapter alone, i'm reading how remarkable and yes, spiritual plants really are...
...its funny to me that not everyone knows this remarkable information about plants as it really is, remarkable...they have done studies in controlled environments about plants and have come up with such amazing findings...to mention just a few:
-plants have memories, if there are two plants together in the same room (which by the way, they are very much aware of 'each other'), and a human comes in and destroys one, the other surviving plant can later 'recognize' the human who killed the previous plant among other humans in the same room
-plants can 'read' or 'sense' your intent towards them-whether good or bad
-plants respond more positively through being consumed rather than falling on the ground to rot
-plants respond more positively to being harvested for consumable purposes rather than being picked for any other reason, or before they are ripe
-and so much more...
so you wonder how?
a polygraph machine is a device attached to humans that is able to detect the most subtle of subtlest reactions and emotions deep within the body in response to certain stimuli presented to the person who is being monitored...
...botanists use the same type of machines to measure plant activity far within its body (trunks, stems, leaves etc..)and plant reactions and responses (cellular level) to a wide variety of stimulus...one day while studying reactions of plants while being watered, a botanist suddenly thought to himself how the plant would react if he set one of the leaves on fire...all of a sudden, the needle on the machine went haywire...the researcher hadn't actually done anything yet, he just thought about it and the plant reacted...after many repeated experiments with many different plants, polygraphers, controls and studies, the same results were apparant...plants had esp...while attached to machines, they would always (definitive numbers that were and are beyond chance) react to the person's intent-whether good or bad...
...one day he tried an experiment to see if the plant was able to 'detect' or 'recognize' someone who had previously done harm to another plant nearby (since plants are very aware of the presences of other plants nearby)
he had five unsuspecting students pick an instruction note out of a hat...one of the students was to walk into the room with the two plants and kill one of them and walk out...(the students were not in on the experiment to remove any intent from their minds that the plants couldn't therefore pick up)...the other four students simply walked in and walked by the plants without doing them any harm, one by one...
...the researcher then asked the students to walk into the room again, alone, one by one...the surviving plant didn't have any reaction to the four students who had previously walked by the plants, but again and again, had drastic and highly measurable results when the perpetrator walked by who had previously killed the other plant...the plant went into a state of deep trance (similar to what animals automatically go in seconds before a deadly attack)...in other words, the researcher was able to conclude that plants are able to recognize someone who may have bad intentions towards them...
...now you ask yourself, as i did, how the heck can something that has no eyes, ears or a brain possibly react to situations like these? this simply leads me to conclude that like animals, who are born with certain instincts for survival without ever being taught how, are drawing their intellegence from a higher source...the same higher source that we draw our own intellegence from-our higher selves, our subconscious minds, the collective unconscious...
...even without experiments, one can't just witness the millions of miracles that occur on a daily basis on earth from plant life to animal life to molecular and cellular activity even in the human body and just conclude that all of this is and was just a random set of events...there's something much larger at play behind every life force...and i personally can't wait to be able to experience it outside my body...sometimes my thirst of this knowledge gets so bad that it feels like i'm going to explode into a million pieces...i swear i would do anything to be flatlined for even a minute (wouldn't matter since there's no time in other dimensions), just so i can poke my head out and take a look-even without my eyes and ears and experience more than i ever thought possible living as a human on earth...
...i always knew there was something mysterious and majestic about plants...:)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
past life report
so anyways, i decided to get a past life report done...like, whatever...
...i guess i wanted to see if i could 'figure out' why i have certain anxieties in this life with no logical explanation, and i was just curious...
...so i got five lives presented to me...in all of them i was either a priest, relief worker, fortune teller, shaman or indian spiritual leader...interesting...
...anyways, one of my 'things' or 'phobias' that i have is a big fear of losing my daughter...now i know every parent has these fears, but this one is different...its really alive and feels very real and causes me lots of anxiety...i love both my kids equally, but don't get any such feeling with ethan, just olivia...
...another unexplained anxiety is high cliffs or buildings (from the viewtop)...and again, i know this is alot of people's fears, but again, this one is very different...the best way i can describle how they're different is the two situations almost feel like a bad memory, or very familiar to me, rather than a 'i can imagine if that happened to me' scenario...i've asked many moms if they also ever had these really paranoid feelings of losing one of their children, and i haven't been able to find anyone yet...
...i knew this cliff thing was really different than any old fear of heights when one day i was watching a true crime documentary (big surprise), where a father and mother were apparantly just 'strolling' around with their four year old boy on a cliff top (wtf??)...obviously, the story was about the dad purposely bringing his wife and kid there and pushed them off-no mother would ever bring her child anywhere near a cliff top (okay, severe rush of anxiety)...
...anyways, as i was watching the story unfold and the picture of a mother and child on a cliff top unfolded in my mind, i got an awful, awful familiar feeling of falling off a cliff...such anxiety!! like a bad bad memory, thoughts and what appeared to be memories so awful, that i literally physically cringe and have to force the thoughts out of my head...anxiety that also gives physcial symptoms like nausea and lightheadedness...
...anyhoo...about the past life report, while describing my final moments of my final life, (ps-the reader doesn't know who i am or my history etc...), he goes into how i died...before that, he makes mention that my daughter in my last life is now my daughter again in this life...apparantly, we were driving in a horse and carriage type vehicle on a curvy roadside along a cliff, there was an obstacle that caused us to veer off and fall off the cliff to me and my daugher's death (another rush of anxiety)...
...interesting...?
many people don't believe in past lives, but of course, my belief is how could you not? life is cyclical just like every other life form out there...we're no different...we come to earth to learn lessons, and unfortunately, those lessons take more than one round trip to accomplish...i really hope this is my last though...:)
...i guess i wanted to see if i could 'figure out' why i have certain anxieties in this life with no logical explanation, and i was just curious...
...so i got five lives presented to me...in all of them i was either a priest, relief worker, fortune teller, shaman or indian spiritual leader...interesting...
...anyways, one of my 'things' or 'phobias' that i have is a big fear of losing my daughter...now i know every parent has these fears, but this one is different...its really alive and feels very real and causes me lots of anxiety...i love both my kids equally, but don't get any such feeling with ethan, just olivia...
...another unexplained anxiety is high cliffs or buildings (from the viewtop)...and again, i know this is alot of people's fears, but again, this one is very different...the best way i can describle how they're different is the two situations almost feel like a bad memory, or very familiar to me, rather than a 'i can imagine if that happened to me' scenario...i've asked many moms if they also ever had these really paranoid feelings of losing one of their children, and i haven't been able to find anyone yet...
...i knew this cliff thing was really different than any old fear of heights when one day i was watching a true crime documentary (big surprise), where a father and mother were apparantly just 'strolling' around with their four year old boy on a cliff top (wtf??)...obviously, the story was about the dad purposely bringing his wife and kid there and pushed them off-no mother would ever bring her child anywhere near a cliff top (okay, severe rush of anxiety)...
...anyways, as i was watching the story unfold and the picture of a mother and child on a cliff top unfolded in my mind, i got an awful, awful familiar feeling of falling off a cliff...such anxiety!! like a bad bad memory, thoughts and what appeared to be memories so awful, that i literally physically cringe and have to force the thoughts out of my head...anxiety that also gives physcial symptoms like nausea and lightheadedness...
...anyhoo...about the past life report, while describing my final moments of my final life, (ps-the reader doesn't know who i am or my history etc...), he goes into how i died...before that, he makes mention that my daughter in my last life is now my daughter again in this life...apparantly, we were driving in a horse and carriage type vehicle on a curvy roadside along a cliff, there was an obstacle that caused us to veer off and fall off the cliff to me and my daugher's death (another rush of anxiety)...
...interesting...?
many people don't believe in past lives, but of course, my belief is how could you not? life is cyclical just like every other life form out there...we're no different...we come to earth to learn lessons, and unfortunately, those lessons take more than one round trip to accomplish...i really hope this is my last though...:)
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
do you hate...
i have to vent about the *&@#$%^&*'in world we live in today...the service industry these days is something you could write a book about...people today all walk around like zombies or robots EXPECTING no less than mediocre to below mediocre service and products because we've all gotten so used to receiving it that we think its the norm.
like when you go somewhere (store, bank, etc...) and you find out when you get home that the product or whatever doesn't work, or the teller forgot to give it to you, or they got something wrong, or whatever the hell and YOU have to return at your time and expense to get it right...and usually you'll get a 'i apologize' if the teller's having an okay day... how many times has this happened to you and the person on the other end had offered some sort of compensation for THEIR mistake? ie free product, etc...?
when i used to be a manager, if a customer would later tell me whether it was in person or on the phone that one of us screwed up somehow, they would always get above and beyond compensated not only for our mistake, but for their time and expense for having to return to get it done right, and to get what their money paid for...
my favourite is grocery stores that scan the wrong price-SO MUCH MORE OFTEN THAN YOU WOULD LIKE TO THINK-so check those prices as they're being scanned because the price errors are always to the store's benefits...not yours...and someone like me who has enough food in her house to survive an armeggedon, so only buys discounted items, would totally notice...i remember once buying something at the grocery store along with other items that probably costed something under 5$, and when she gave me the total, i knew something was wrong (i wasn't paying that much attention to the individual scans)...anyways, turned out one of the products scanned for 55.00 and some sense-a 50.00 bonus for the store!! wow..imagine that...and i wish i had a camera for the cashier's 'irritated' reaction that i was somehow 'wasting' her time having to double check the bill, even upon finding out i was just about to get jipped 50 bucks...but no, go ahead, a national grocer needs it more than i do...
back to when i was on the other side of the fence, the lucky customer that would complain about a mistake we made would get much more than they bargained for-not only the correct product or service back, but loads of shit on top of that for their trouble...what the hell is wrong with that and why the hell doesn't anyone do that anymore (somehow, i think in the old days of ma and pa businesses, it was the norm)
anyways, there are so many important issues out there, so why am i taking the time to gab about this is i'm so f***in tired of having mistaken or wrong or terrible service happen to me probably about 95% of the time, literally...and i've never been delightfully compensated...ever
...
if businesses want to stick out in the minds of all of us mediocre-expecting robots, all they would have to do is one little thing above and beyond and we would be totally blown away-and i mean something really insignificant...like maybe..."i'm very sorry madam/sir...please accept this product/service on us due to our error and to your lost time and irritation because of it'...
geez...what a friggin concept...
like when you go somewhere (store, bank, etc...) and you find out when you get home that the product or whatever doesn't work, or the teller forgot to give it to you, or they got something wrong, or whatever the hell and YOU have to return at your time and expense to get it right...and usually you'll get a 'i apologize' if the teller's having an okay day... how many times has this happened to you and the person on the other end had offered some sort of compensation for THEIR mistake? ie free product, etc...?
when i used to be a manager, if a customer would later tell me whether it was in person or on the phone that one of us screwed up somehow, they would always get above and beyond compensated not only for our mistake, but for their time and expense for having to return to get it done right, and to get what their money paid for...
my favourite is grocery stores that scan the wrong price-SO MUCH MORE OFTEN THAN YOU WOULD LIKE TO THINK-so check those prices as they're being scanned because the price errors are always to the store's benefits...not yours...and someone like me who has enough food in her house to survive an armeggedon, so only buys discounted items, would totally notice...i remember once buying something at the grocery store along with other items that probably costed something under 5$, and when she gave me the total, i knew something was wrong (i wasn't paying that much attention to the individual scans)...anyways, turned out one of the products scanned for 55.00 and some sense-a 50.00 bonus for the store!! wow..imagine that...and i wish i had a camera for the cashier's 'irritated' reaction that i was somehow 'wasting' her time having to double check the bill, even upon finding out i was just about to get jipped 50 bucks...but no, go ahead, a national grocer needs it more than i do...
back to when i was on the other side of the fence, the lucky customer that would complain about a mistake we made would get much more than they bargained for-not only the correct product or service back, but loads of shit on top of that for their trouble...what the hell is wrong with that and why the hell doesn't anyone do that anymore (somehow, i think in the old days of ma and pa businesses, it was the norm)
anyways, there are so many important issues out there, so why am i taking the time to gab about this is i'm so f***in tired of having mistaken or wrong or terrible service happen to me probably about 95% of the time, literally...and i've never been delightfully compensated...ever
...
if businesses want to stick out in the minds of all of us mediocre-expecting robots, all they would have to do is one little thing above and beyond and we would be totally blown away-and i mean something really insignificant...like maybe..."i'm very sorry madam/sir...please accept this product/service on us due to our error and to your lost time and irritation because of it'...
geez...what a friggin concept...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
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