plants...

have you ever sat down and just stared at a plant for several minutes? i mean really stop and just stare? have you ever 'felt', 'sensed' something from it? a few years ago, i started to really just love plant life, yes, in a spiritual way...i would look at trees and just get a sense from them that they were in fact living things, yes, but also living things with a soul, a consciousness and a certain kind of intellegence superior to that of humans...
..anytime we would take the kids walking in the forest, i would purposely lose brian and the kids so i could sit down and be alone with a fern, meditate and be one with it...

...one of the things i'm enjoying about my course is that i'm finding its just re-affirming so many things i've felt i've known before, but wasn't able to fully articulate...i don't know if anyone can relate to what i'm saying, but its like there's some things in life that you just 'know' without ever studying about them or anything, you just get a settling of non verbal information in your bones about them...one of these 'knowings' of mine were always about plants...i always had a romantic view on them and always felt somewhat inferior to them on many different levels...

...i couldn't decide which subject to start in my program...plant communication or animal communication, so i decided plant communication would be far more interesting...in the first chapter alone, i'm reading how remarkable and yes, spiritual plants really are...

...its funny to me that not everyone knows this remarkable information about plants as it really is, remarkable...they have done studies in controlled environments about plants and have come up with such amazing findings...to mention just a few:

-plants have memories, if there are two plants together in the same room (which by the way, they are very much aware of 'each other'), and a human comes in and destroys one, the other surviving plant can later 'recognize' the human who killed the previous plant among other humans in the same room

-plants can 'read' or 'sense' your intent towards them-whether good or bad
-plants respond more positively through being consumed rather than falling on the ground to rot
-plants respond more positively to being harvested for consumable purposes rather than being picked for any other reason, or before they are ripe
-and so much more...

so you wonder how?

a polygraph machine is a device attached to humans that is able to detect the most subtle of subtlest reactions and emotions deep within the body in response to certain stimuli presented to the person who is being monitored...


...botanists use the same type of machines to measure plant activity far within its body (trunks, stems, leaves etc..)and plant reactions and responses (cellular level) to a wide variety of stimulus...one day while studying reactions of plants while being watered, a botanist suddenly thought to himself how the plant would react if he set one of the leaves on fire...all of a sudden, the needle on the machine went haywire...the researcher hadn't actually done anything yet, he just thought about it and the plant reacted...after many repeated experiments with many different plants, polygraphers, controls and studies, the same results were apparant...plants had esp...while attached to machines, they would always (definitive numbers that were and are beyond chance) react to the person's intent-whether good or bad...

...one day he tried an experiment to see if the plant was able to 'detect' or 'recognize' someone who had previously done harm to another plant nearby (since plants are very aware of the presences of other plants nearby)
he had five unsuspecting students pick an instruction note out of a hat...one of the students was to walk into the room with the two plants and kill one of them and walk out...(the students were not in on the experiment to remove any intent from their minds that the plants couldn't therefore pick up)...the other four students simply walked in and walked by the plants without doing them any harm, one by one...

...the researcher then asked the students to walk into the room again, alone, one by one...the surviving plant didn't have any reaction to the four students who had previously walked by the plants, but again and again, had drastic and highly measurable results when the perpetrator walked by who had previously killed the other plant...the plant went into a state of deep trance (similar to what animals automatically go in seconds before a deadly attack)...in other words, the researcher was able to conclude that plants are able to recognize someone who may have bad intentions towards them...


...now you ask yourself, as i did, how the heck can something that has no eyes, ears or a brain possibly react to situations like these? this simply leads me to conclude that like animals, who are born with certain instincts for survival without ever being taught how, are drawing their intellegence from a higher source...the same higher source that we draw our own intellegence from-our higher selves, our subconscious minds, the collective unconscious...

...even without experiments, one can't just witness the millions of miracles that occur on a daily basis on earth from plant life to animal life to molecular and cellular activity even in the human body and just conclude that all of this is and was just a random set of events...there's something much larger at play behind every life force...and i personally can't wait to be able to experience it outside my body...sometimes my thirst of this knowledge gets so bad that it feels like i'm going to explode into a million pieces...i swear i would do anything to be flatlined for even a minute (wouldn't matter since there's no time in other dimensions), just so i can poke my head out and take a look-even without my eyes and ears and experience more than i ever thought possible living as a human on earth...

...i always knew there was something mysterious and majestic about plants...:)

past life report

so anyways, i decided to get a past life report done...like, whatever...

...i guess i wanted to see if i could 'figure out' why i have certain anxieties in this life with no logical explanation, and i was just curious...

...so i got five lives presented to me...in all of them i was either a priest, relief worker, fortune teller, shaman or indian spiritual leader...interesting...

...anyways, one of my 'things' or 'phobias' that i have is a big fear of losing my daughter...now i know every parent has these fears, but this one is different...its really alive and feels very real and causes me lots of anxiety...i love both my kids equally, but don't get any such feeling with ethan, just olivia...
...another unexplained anxiety is high cliffs or buildings (from the viewtop)...and again, i know this is alot of people's fears, but again, this one is very different...the best way i can describle how they're different is the two situations almost feel like a bad memory, or very familiar to me, rather than a 'i can imagine if that happened to me' scenario...i've asked many moms if they also ever had these really paranoid feelings of losing one of their children, and i haven't been able to find anyone yet...

...i knew this cliff thing was really different than any old fear of heights when one day i was watching a true crime documentary (big surprise), where a father and mother were apparantly just 'strolling' around with their four year old boy on a cliff top (wtf??)...obviously, the story was about the dad purposely bringing his wife and kid there and pushed them off-no mother would ever bring her child anywhere near a cliff top (okay, severe rush of anxiety)...

...anyways, as i was watching the story unfold and the picture of a mother and child on a cliff top unfolded in my mind, i got an awful, awful familiar feeling of falling off a cliff...such anxiety!! like a bad bad memory, thoughts and what appeared to be memories so awful, that i literally physically cringe and have to force the thoughts out of my head...anxiety that also gives physcial symptoms like nausea and lightheadedness...


...anyhoo...about the past life report, while describing my final moments of my final life, (ps-the reader doesn't know who i am or my history etc...), he goes into how i died...before that, he makes mention that my daughter in my last life is now my daughter again in this life...apparantly, we were driving in a horse and carriage type vehicle on a curvy roadside along a cliff, there was an obstacle that caused us to veer off and fall off the cliff to me and my daugher's death (another rush of anxiety)...

...interesting...?

many people don't believe in past lives, but of course, my belief is how could you not? life is cyclical just like every other life form out there...we're no different...we come to earth to learn lessons, and unfortunately, those lessons take more than one round trip to accomplish...i really hope this is my last though...:)