past life report

so anyways, i decided to get a past life report done...like, whatever...

...i guess i wanted to see if i could 'figure out' why i have certain anxieties in this life with no logical explanation, and i was just curious...

...so i got five lives presented to me...in all of them i was either a priest, relief worker, fortune teller, shaman or indian spiritual leader...interesting...

...anyways, one of my 'things' or 'phobias' that i have is a big fear of losing my daughter...now i know every parent has these fears, but this one is different...its really alive and feels very real and causes me lots of anxiety...i love both my kids equally, but don't get any such feeling with ethan, just olivia...
...another unexplained anxiety is high cliffs or buildings (from the viewtop)...and again, i know this is alot of people's fears, but again, this one is very different...the best way i can describle how they're different is the two situations almost feel like a bad memory, or very familiar to me, rather than a 'i can imagine if that happened to me' scenario...i've asked many moms if they also ever had these really paranoid feelings of losing one of their children, and i haven't been able to find anyone yet...

...i knew this cliff thing was really different than any old fear of heights when one day i was watching a true crime documentary (big surprise), where a father and mother were apparantly just 'strolling' around with their four year old boy on a cliff top (wtf??)...obviously, the story was about the dad purposely bringing his wife and kid there and pushed them off-no mother would ever bring her child anywhere near a cliff top (okay, severe rush of anxiety)...

...anyways, as i was watching the story unfold and the picture of a mother and child on a cliff top unfolded in my mind, i got an awful, awful familiar feeling of falling off a cliff...such anxiety!! like a bad bad memory, thoughts and what appeared to be memories so awful, that i literally physically cringe and have to force the thoughts out of my head...anxiety that also gives physcial symptoms like nausea and lightheadedness...


...anyhoo...about the past life report, while describing my final moments of my final life, (ps-the reader doesn't know who i am or my history etc...), he goes into how i died...before that, he makes mention that my daughter in my last life is now my daughter again in this life...apparantly, we were driving in a horse and carriage type vehicle on a curvy roadside along a cliff, there was an obstacle that caused us to veer off and fall off the cliff to me and my daugher's death (another rush of anxiety)...

...interesting...?

many people don't believe in past lives, but of course, my belief is how could you not? life is cyclical just like every other life form out there...we're no different...we come to earth to learn lessons, and unfortunately, those lessons take more than one round trip to accomplish...i really hope this is my last though...:)